Pronunciation Key (snärk) adj. Slang snark’i’er, snark’i’est Irritable or short-tempered; irascible. According to Max, this accurately describes how I’ve been today. And I suppose that is why company can’t seem to stay around. I can’t get my baby to stick around or spend more than one day a month complete with me. I can’t get … Read More
If it weren’t bad enough that my baby feels like not touching me… I have conjunctivitis with corneal infiltrate…. Pink eye to the layman. So now the rest of the world can’t really be bothered with me either. Great. I feel like a leper. I’m so tired and this stupid drop process is going to … Read More
She got back with Big. I have NO words. *
So tired today… consumed with the thought that the world is full of masochists. or folks who don’t value themselves. everyone seems to want carrie to get back with big. for what? 6 more years of being led astray but definitely away from real happiness? just feigned, fleeting moments of ignorant bliss that are just … Read More
DREAMS Okay… another strange dream last night. Not remembering all of it. But I do remember that there was a horrible mudslide in my neighborhood and I was with my father trying to get into the building but we were trying to drive into the building. So we drove the truck down the stairs and … Read More
“How are you doing Vic?” “I’m working Very very VERY Fucking hard….” That’s my response. The workload has consumed me… I dream about it. I think about it constantly. Trying so hard not to misstep. I’m barely living life. I’m alive but not living. I’m eating but not tasting. It’s wake up at some ungodly … Read More
News trends…. from the AMNY Free News Paper in NY. Page 2 – Spits out of Coma: “A local television reporter has emerged from a coma, two months after she was struck in the side of the head by the side mirror of a passing van while covering a story in Harlem… She said she … Read More
I’m sitting here listening to Shuggie Otis’ Inspiration Information and I’m marveling at what music can do. Take you back mentally to a place that you had long forgotten. What is this new feeling that I feel now? This… yearning to go back there just to feel it again. Whatever I was feeling back then. Used … Read More
So, what I expected to have happen today did. Just like I thought. My body kicked in and it’s business like usual. I’m so frustrated with it. And of course this month will be the most painful, most unruly … just to make it 10 times harder to deal with. It’s 8:19 AM and I’m … Read More
It’s been confirmed. My status. Two and you are… one and you’re not. And I got one. This was a no win situation for me mentally. Either way… i was going to find some horrid way of beating myself up for being me. Just my body’s way of pointing a finger at me and cackling … Read More