On November 30th, I wrote: “…If i isolate my esteem in this deprivation tank how long might it take me to hallucinate about what i think is happening and will the process of reconvincing myself to “reality” ultimately drive me insane waking from this nightmare strapped into restraints and straddling the wall of reason laying … Read More
Some things in life are just necessary to healing. When a wound is open, you need medicine (anti-bacterial ointment or something), oxygen (air and space), protection (a bandage of some kind) and time. The hope is with all those factors in effect at the same time, you’ll heal and maybe not have much of a scar … Read More
No… this is not a post about my Earl 😉 This is a post about my best friend Sug. Today, March 7th is a special day. It is the day that the Lord put her on this earth to inspire the masses! She’s successfully escaped the Matrix and she’s not coming back… soaring high above … Read More
Okay… I’ve been away for a minute. Sorry for that. I’m back 🙂 brief recap before I lay my head down to get some sleep. This weekend we had chapter meeting, where they decided to not “give” me GA. Too much on my plate was the citation. I felt bad because I guess, to me, … Read More
Happy New Year to all! I wish I could set this year off with a super optimistic, wonderfully bright message. But I’ve promised to be as real as I can be… when I can be. And for starters, 2005 seems awfully lonely to me. It’s something I think I inherited from my mom and grandma. … Read More
Today was filled with entertainment. Firstly i got the opportunity to hang with Max ALL DAY. I thought I would bore her to death, but somehow I managed not to. First orde of the day was to attend the 2:00 PM Matinee of Alvin Ailey Dance Theater, which has always managed to put me in … Read More
FUCK THE MARRIED CLUB. Fuck the married-elitist-“I-have-a-family-and-you-don’t-so-that-makes-us-better” Club. I’m sick of friends marrying off and then shucking off the life they had. Just slithering out of the previous skin and moving on; leaving friends behind because of their status or lack thereof. I have lost SO MANY FRIENDS on account of the fact that they … Read More
I woke up this morning with the intention of sitting down and writing out the bizzare dreams that I had running through my mind last night. But reality struck that down in the face of death. As I opened up my new.blogger.com window, my cell phone rang. I saw it was one of my Sorors. … Read More
I’m burnt out already from the events of the weekend. And honestly it hasn’t been much. I don’t really have too much to say. I joined Chocolate Brides today (under protest) but I’m on it now. I guess I’ll have to wait and see how that all turns out. I went to San Gennaro with … Read More
“We don’t like ourselves sometimes,” mom said today as she cut half of the jelly donut waiting for my dad when he came back. “More than sometimes,” I replied. I really thought about what she said today. We hate ourselves sometimes, even. Downright don’t care enough to treat ourselves with love and respect. To care … Read More