Until

Once upon a time

I was stronger
And young.

Fearless
And hopeful
Full of fairy tales and fables
Of what my life could be

If I JUST believed.

I believed hard enough to
Move mountains and
Drain oceans
Halt time and
Alter realities.

Believed hard enough to
Spin the yarn of life into being
Because i willed it
With all my being.

But now looking back
And looking forward
I don’t see what I once saw.

I’m out of energy

The fairy tales have all rung false

And faint truths don’t fortify with enough

To sustain me.

Tethered by a single unbreakable fiber…

I yearn for freedom.
Freedom from judgement
Freedom from expectations
Freedom from lies
And justification.

Freedom from having to find my true self

In a world that never really saw me for me.

I’ll languish at the end of this chain
Until time finally comes to absolve me.

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