My daughter asked me if I’ll be updated ThoughtsDaughter. I told her I would. I wondered why she asked. Maybe she’s been reading. All good either way. Here’s me sticking to my promise. I was holding it together for the last… 48 hours and the thought crossed my mind… Does anyone get saved? Will anyone … Read More
Used to be that I dreaded the return to workday. Whether it was the Monday after a regular weekend or the Tuesday after a long one. The day before, right around 5PM or so, I’d get this cloud hanging over me, reminding me that the respite was over. It was time to lend my full … Read More
It’s been a running theme in my world. Rephrasing the reciprocity trope. I sent a message to someone at work last night right before going to sleep and then for whatever reason agonized about how I would hypothetically reply to their possible replies. ALL. NIGHT. Like… literally spent all night crafting the response in a … Read More
This reciprocity thing… Really takes me for a loop on a regular. Perception is king. So maybe what I think, feel, say… how I hold others in whatever regard… might be my reality. Maybe I’m lending to the narrative that I’m just a bit character in the greater scheme of their lives. That I should … Read More
Three years now. I’ve been stuck. Officially stuck. Since June 1, 2017. Everything in me wanted to see this appointment as being a hail mary. An answered prayer. God taking my whole situation into consideration and believing that I deserved this lifesaver. Surely I’d drown without it. Financially. Progressively with respect to my career. Emotionally. … Read More
So, for me… something smells. Always. My sense of smell has been the gift and the curse for me all my life. I’ve always joked growing up in Queens that I could smell a fire that just started in Flatbush. And while that may not have been entirely true – I could smell a fire … Read More
In Kanye’s latest “Ye”, the first song is called “I Thought About Killing You”. In one line he said “Just say it out loud to see how it feels. People say ‘Don’t say this. Don’t say that.’ Just say it out loud… just to see how it feels. Weigh all the options. Nothing is off … Read More
Frankly? What a shit day. Thank God for mini getaways. Mental and otherwise. Bone tired. Will do more this weekend. AWF tomorrow! YES LAWD! Avery Sunshine “Sweet Afternoon” *
I had an experience about 3 weeks ago where one night I felt a twinge of pain in the center of my left breast. I thought it was because perhaps I had pulled or strained something. So I took to massaging it to see if I could disburse the lactic acid that might be forming … Read More
I’m not sure what I did. Or maybe I do. I don’t want to consider it all to be punishment. Maybe I’m being taught a lesson. But personally and professionally, I am rotting on the vine. Whatever was previously deemed interesting, exciting, brilliant, valuable, worthy is now laying unused. Unwanted. Untapped. Maybe in order to … Read More