The world has gone to sleep and left me here sitting at this computer. I’m painfully lonely tonight (sur-fucking-prise) but I’m just working through it. Literally, all the work I’d do at my desk tomorrow, I’m sitting up and doing now. Just trying to stop thinking, really. Because all my questions don’t have answers. At … Read More
That sums up how I feel today. Just weird. One minute, I’m really happy. Then I’m really not so happy… borderline depressed. Then I’m indifferent. Then I’m lonely. So, I’m thinking that I must be around that time where my hormones take over and stop me from having the regular control that I normally have … Read More
We sat and talked at length and went about discussing what happened in the morning and our feelings and some crazy stuff was dredged up about feelings in the past about his father and the way he treated his mother. Many apologies were exchanged and we are still together… wedding is still on, but we’ll … Read More
This is the reason why I flip out. This is the reason why I lose all sense of reason and get all ‘noid and upset when I think he’s leaving. He IS the best thing that ever happened to me. He IS the answer to a prayer I offered up to God when I was … Read More
Not a word anyone says. Nothing that you see or hear or feel… None of it is real. There are always layers and layers and layers of things you don’t see or know about till much later…. sometimes you NEVER find out. And that’s just how life is. Nothing is real. In a city of … Read More
The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy. -Martin Luther King, Jr. I always try to remember this quote whenever stuff is going wrong. It’s easy to be happy go lucky when stuff is going good. … Read More
I’m having a shittacious day. For many reasons that I cannot even begin to elaborate on. Most of them having to do with Money. Rectification… the issues with money pushed me down the slippery slope of shittaciousness today. Just when I think I have my finances under control and shit is paid off… And SHAZZZAAAAAAM… … Read More
Sometimes, music in the waking world seeps into your dream… maybe as the band that’s playing at some grand ball that you’re attending. Maybe as an instrument that you’ve somehow become adept at playing in your dream… or just as your alarm, waking you from your actual dream. Arguments, however, crash into your dream and … Read More
I just awoke from the worst nightmare that I’ve had in a lot of years. I’m pretty distraught right now, still. And it’s been a while since I’ve had a dream that makes me this mad, this far after waking up. The details of the dream are sketchy, but it was one that seemed to … Read More
poetry emphasis in poetry: the emphasis placed on a particular syllable or word as part of the rhythm of a poem or line music accent in music: the emphasis placed on a particular note as part of the rhythm of a piece of music, or a mark representing this physics force deforming a body: a … Read More