Author: iam
Date: January 19, 2022
I have always been a radio girl. I may not have always studied each and every song as hard as others: knowing the producers and writers and performers of every single song; knowing when they were released and if they were reprises; knowing the origin of every breakbeat and every sample. But my radio was … Read More
Author: iam
Date: February 24, 2020
Growing up in NYC is an adventure. Growing up during the 90s / early Millennia even more so. I’m partial. That was my “coming of age”. Fresh out of college… experiencing the “real world” – mine only has quotations around it because I lived at home for a solid decade more, not stacking chips but … Read More
Author: iam
Date: September 1, 2019
Categories:
death,
dreamsWe walked along a boardwalk that was headed to a beach. (not running alongside the shoreline but the water was the destination). Along the way there were several carnival-like places to go into – gaming places, music club, bars, etc. I noticed that she was all at once my mother and my daughter. But I … Read More
Author: iam
Date: June 25, 2018
So, for me… something smells. Always. My sense of smell has been the gift and the curse for me all my life. I’ve always joked growing up in Queens that I could smell a fire that just started in Flatbush. And while that may not have been entirely true – I could smell a fire … Read More
Author: iam
Date: March 20, 2018
There were a bevy of personalities I felt that if they were in my life or contributed in a significant way, I would have become a very different person. While I don’t outwardly regret who I have become up to this point, I am riddled with… “what if’s”. Most often when I am aware of … Read More
Author: iam
Date: March 14, 2018
Getting fitted for the tuxedo he would have worn to walk me down the aisle. I guess if you put all the logic pieces together at age 7 or 8… it makes sense. They tell you that the goal is to marry someone who loves you. Who will always take care of you and … Read More
Author: iam
Date: October 11, 2017
Every day on this day, I flip through your pictures. Telling myself that I won’t commemorate this day. I’d rather celebrate your life than remember your passing. But it’s impossible not to think that this is the day the Earth went cold. Where all the real love was drained from Gaia. When the only person … Read More
Author: iam
Date: September 12, 2017
I had an experience about 3 weeks ago where one night I felt a twinge of pain in the center of my left breast. I thought it was because perhaps I had pulled or strained something. So I took to massaging it to see if I could disburse the lactic acid that might be forming … Read More
Author: iam
Date: August 21, 2005
I just finished watching the finale of SFU and wow. The whole episode was a standard episode, but the last 5 minutes. Good Lord. I cried so hard I have a headache. I realize that everyone has to go. This world is transient. And everything in it. But the worst parts of leaving are 1) … Read More
Author: iam
Date: August 7, 2005
Categories:
death,
dreamsI had a night out on the town of Houston with a few friends last night. Drank, played, talked and had a generally fun time. Got home from it pretty hammered but surprisingly had a lot of trouble getting to sleep. I had the fortune of getting to sleep for an hour or so and … Read More