I’m answering questions from my TLOB Group here… Part A: Who am I? [Choose five words that honestly and accurately describe who you are now. Choose five words that describe who you want to be.] Who I am now: Creative, Empathetic, Self-Defeating, Enthusiastic, Worrysome Who I want to be: Peaceful, Contented, Debt-Free, Hopeful, Motherly Part … Read More
birthday calls have been coming in since 9:00. I really feel loved. My mom looked at me last night with this look of… “Wow… my baby is all grown up” and it felt really amazing. Thinking about it makes me tear up… because the same way she’ll always look at me and see her baby… … Read More
Wooo… yesterday was just a bad day. I really felt a welling up of emotions that I didn’t know where they were all coming from. But I know now. And she’s right on schedule (for a change). Although a drag… I’m glad it’s here. I saw this pregnant woman walking down the street today on … Read More
I might have done better if I stayed home today. It’s been one of those days. Nothing about me is right. I’m mad at my self for looking the way I do… living my life financially the way I have. Today, there’s nothing anyone can tell me that will make me feel like anything more … Read More
So you know this has to be bad. You know… once upon a time, if I got “called in” to any head honcho’s office… it was usually to talk about how they’re pleased with my work. I do good work. I’m a smart girl… I’m confident of this. But this company… damnit… they only call … Read More
Today was pretty blah. I had a restless nights sleep. Last night I cut a “friend” off. I use that loosely. He wasn’t much of a friend. More like… someone I gave and gave and gave to… and he took and took and took… and expected more. Which was a perfectly fine model of friendship … Read More
It’s gotten to the point where the memories don’t even make me so much as smile anymore. Memories of fond things I did with Sug and Max… sweet memories of loves past… barely even memories of my childhood running hot and cold. I look upon all of them with my minds eye and stare at … Read More
It is now 1:52 PM and I’m stuck in this airport. I really want to go home. I can’t stand this. I feel really sick from last night’s festivities and my body is wreaking havoc on me. I just spoke with Jean and Shawn and they are on their own agendas (as if I should … Read More
I’m here from a long day’s work and stuff… and I’m really down tonight. I’m so sad… and I’m thinking it’s my god awful period that is coming. But it’s other things. All sparked off by my constant ostracization from the team during practice. And it’s not even discreet. I am not really the mistress. … Read More