Tonight, my baby and I were talking about baby names. What we’d name our boy and our girl. I had suggested Christopher but he thought that was too plain. He suggested Elias… but I think that’s too… um… Jewish sounding. Nothing against the Jews. But we’d call him “Eli” for short. What we did agree … Read More
I don’t know if I’m expecting too much. But it seems as of late… it’s alright for me to have second best. I don’t know why that is. I’m not flashy or glitzy. But I do envy when my friends get beautiful watches, or coats, or boots or jewelry. I get none of that. I … Read More
Quiet. It’s been today… it’s been lately. I need to shake stuff up. I need playthings. Life is getting a little mundane. Such a roller coaster… I know. *
I feel much less burdened today. Although I’m very tired. Today was a day with my soul set on God. I didn’t deviate from it. I felt really clean and airy. I slept moderately well yesterday (despite the bit of nausea last night while I slept… but my baby tells me that he was also … Read More
Today’s Soundtrack: Create In Me a Clean Heart – Donnie McClurkin I took a personal health (mental, that is) today and I just cleaned and cleaned and cleaned. And it’s amazing what that does. I didn’t sleep a wink last night. Tossing and turning about and swearing that something was in the room with me. … Read More
I was consumed with lonliness today I don’t know how else to put it. No matter what I did I managed to stay alone even if that’s not how I wanted to be. I participated in the Breast Cancer walk today. 5 miles and most of it spent alone. I turned my thoughts to my … Read More
Passion Everywhere I go I see people with passion. In their lives, for their work, in their loves… and they look consumed. Possessed. All I can do is wonder if life is really living without it. Can you live passionateless and be fulfilled? I went out with Sugie tonight and we ended up at a … Read More
I’m answering questions from my TLOB Group here… Part A: Who am I? [Choose five words that honestly and accurately describe who you are now. Choose five words that describe who you want to be.] Who I am now: Creative, Empathetic, Self-Defeating, Enthusiastic, Worrysome Who I want to be: Peaceful, Contented, Debt-Free, Hopeful, Motherly Part … Read More
I’m wearing my glasses tonight Which I never do… cause I HATE how I look with them. But my headaches have to be coming from somewhere. So I’m trying out different things to make them go away. They said it was gonna rain tonight, but I haven’t seen a drop yet. Last night my baby … Read More
Empty City I’m at work today and I have to say, althought I HATE being at work on a national holiday, I do certainly appreciate NY more like this than any other way. The train ride was stress-free, I found a seat… made all the connections with no worries; there werent a million people on … Read More