I sometimes forget… that we are in the midst of a war. I care not for what has been “declared”. If I hear that more and more of our troops are dying… We’re still in war. A sobering reminder came to me today. One of my younger (in AKA years) sorors is being deployed. And … Read More
Just that quickly I get all heated writing about how things aren’t going right. It’s that quickly that he runs and manages to set everything into place. I was so mad I didn’t even want to see him or talk to him. That anger comes from me feeling like I’ve trapped myself in ways. I … Read More
I remember telling him that these kinds of things only happen once in a while. I remember saying that these are the kinds of stories that we WANT to tell our kids and grandkids about. We already missed being able to see planets with our naked eye. My memory fails me if it was Venus … Read More
I’m sitting here listening to Shuggie Otis’ Inspiration Information and I’m marveling at what music can do. Take you back mentally to a place that you had long forgotten. What is this new feeling that I feel now? This… yearning to go back there just to feel it again. Whatever I was feeling back then. Used … Read More
So, what I expected to have happen today did. Just like I thought. My body kicked in and it’s business like usual. I’m so frustrated with it. And of course this month will be the most painful, most unruly … just to make it 10 times harder to deal with. It’s 8:19 AM and I’m … Read More
It’s been confirmed. My status. Two and you are… one and you’re not. And I got one. This was a no win situation for me mentally. Either way… i was going to find some horrid way of beating myself up for being me. Just my body’s way of pointing a finger at me and cackling … Read More
They’re back. And I’ve been really quiet. Because I don’t know exactly how I feel about it. I felt so worried about them because they were gone and I was lonely. But now that they’re back the familiar worry that I always had has set back in. I had forgotten how it felt momentarily. But … Read More
Mom and dad come back tomorrow. And I’m relieved. I kinda feel like I’ve been holding my breath until they come back in some kind of show of maturity and ability. But I’m good to exhale now. If for no other reason then a resolution to my fear. I’m horribly nervous in this space and … Read More
I’ve heard this term so much that I had a dream about running in the marathon. ‘cept… I was running away from Diddy as he chased me taunting “take that take that” and “we ain’t… goin’ nowhere… we ain’t goin no where” But I heard that he actually made it through the marathon and beat … Read More
So I’m really feeling it now. We’re really into each other. Mom and Dad are in Florida because Uncle Rene is dying. And Daddy is taking it pretty hard. So my baby came by last night and set the stage… just how I wanted him to. Candlelight. Music… and LOVE. He talked to me… and … Read More