Here I am again… and here they are. All these people. They want to see me and my sunshiny smile and my jokes to make them laugh. The smiling china doll. I cant’ let them down, can I? Smile. I can make them forget their problems but what about mine? Laugh. Why can I forget my problems? Joke. They’re always there. Always. Smile. I cant’ take it anymore. Won’t someone please help me? Laugh. Can’t anyone see I’m dying inside? Joke. It’s so very clear to see in my eyes. The pain that I feel. Keep Smiling. Maybe you aren’t looking into my eyes. Maybe I never look you in the eye. Keep Laughing. I’m trapped in my fake smile with my fake hopes and dreams and all my real memories. Keep Joking. Please don’t call it a passing feeling. It’s not. Don’t stop smiling. He’s gone. And he’s taken my heart with him. Don’t stop laughing. My heart and all the love I ever had for anyone or anything is gone. Don’t stop joking. And you tell me I’ll get over him overnight. I’m going to stop smiling. Stop laughing. Stop Joking. The china doll just shattered. Looks like the joke’s on me.